Sunday, January 6, 2013

Hazelnut cookies... and the art of wanting with a grain of salt





Happy New Year, since this is my first post of 2013... The past six months on this blog have been incredibly fulfilling and I’m looking forward to more this coming year.

The holiday season has got me thinking about wants and expectations.

Pablo had a wonderful Christmas, and was quite showered with gifts. It was his first “aware” Christmas, he knew about Santa Claus coming and bringing gifts. And I have been debating for some time about what I want to tell him about gifts and Santa Claus, because I would like him to enjoy thinking of and making gifts to others too. And I would like him to recognize how thoughtful others have been to him. And yet, I would like him to experience Christmas as a child, with all the magic of Santa, Rudolph, stockings and the whole bit.

I have on occasion witnessed older children wanting something in particular, and being excited about wanting it, expecting to get what they want, and being completely uninterested and underwhelmed by the many other gifts they receive, which seems like such a shame and waste. It just feels so ungrateful and entitled somehow, it makes me cringe. They know they’re going to get what they want, so they expect it. Which got me wondering: are expectations the root of ungratefulness?

Entitled people I’ve encountered in my life have never seemed grateful to me. If we expect something, feel entitled to receive it as a matter of normality, then I suppose there’s nothing to be grateful for. And if for whatever reason, we don't get what we expect, it can go one of two ways: we blame others, or we blame ourselves.

Yet again, life isn't that simple.

Looking in the mirror, I realized this is something I have struggled with myself. Expecting to get the things that I want in life. That has certainly been the cause of some bitter disappointments (and self-blame). And I have learned just how crucial it is to differentiate quite clearly in my mind what I want from what I expect. When it involves other people and things outside of our control (and every part of living involves things outside of our control), we have no business expecting anything really. The only things we should expect, besides stuff like gravity, are things within our control, that involve ourselves, our effort, our work. I feel it’s OK to want something, just as long as I am fully aware I may not get it, or not the way I envisioned it. And to be all the more grateful when I do get it. 

Kind of like, wanting with a grain of salt.

Wanting is less closed-minded than expecting. It seems easier to let go of wants than of expectations. Wants come and go. But our expectations are ingrained in our brains, they are that picture in our head, by which we measure success or failure. If our reality of the moment matches that picture, we have succeeded. If not, we have failed. But that is such a construct of our mind, far removed from real life, right here and right now. I am starting to think that succeeding is letting go of that picture, those expectations. And failing, is to never see beyond the expectations, and missing out on the many awesome unknowns and unsuspecteds life has in store for us.

So I’m learning to maintain a clear boundary between what I want and what I expect. Some things are better wanted than expected.

I guess that’s what I want Pablo to feel when “Santa” brings gifts to him. To want them, but not expect them. I would like him to want to receive gifts, sure. But only to expect giving them.

How does one teach that? How does one learn it?

Perhaps this is one of those things children learn by osmosis, if their models clearly make the difference in their life. I’m hoping to teach him this as I go, by keeping that boundary in my awareness as an individual and as a parent.


As I have previously reflected, I found the kitchen to be one excellent place to learn, and teach this. Take these cookies for example. They were not what I expected. The thin tollhouse type chocolate chip cookies. But I guess in the end, I just wanted them to be good. And when a cookie expert friend of mine came over, and had 4 in a row in spite of his wonderful usual will power, I figured they were good.

So here they are. They are not the graceful greyhound of cookies. They are more the big paws golden retriever of cookies (for some reason, a dog analogy came to mind...) Sweet, nutty, chunky. But I find myself loving them and enjoying them for what they are, as I write these very words...  I hope you will too.


 
 

Hazelnut chocolate chip cookies

Makes about 20 cookies

Prep time: 15 mn
Cook time: 15 mn + cool off time

Age for babies: After 12 months, in very small quantity as a treat. (I didn't give Pablo chocolate until after 16 months.)

1/2 cup butter
1/2 cup sugar
1/2 cup brown sugar
1 egg
1 tsp vanilla extract
3/4 cup hazelnut butter
1 cup flour
1 tsp baking powder
a pinch of salt
3/4 cup chocolate chips

Preheat the oven at 375°F.

Line a large cookie sheet (or two) with parchment paper.

Beat the butter, sugar and brown sugar together until creamy. Add the egg & vanilla, and beat until smooth.

Add the hazelnut butter and beat until combined.

Add flour, baking powder and salt, and stir to combine. Add chocolate chips and stir again.

Drop small spoonfuls of dough onto the parchment. Bake 12-15 minutes.

Remove from oven and let rest on the sheet for 1 minute, before removing. Let cool on a rack, and keep in a tin box if possible.


 
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9 comments:

  1. Happy New Year Helene.

    I think you are right, it is more about expecting rather than hoping for.

    Cooper had a great Christmas too, although he wasn't excited until the day. He kept saying "too much Christmas mummy". He didn't ask for anything, but then he is still wee.

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  2. Oh and I forgot to tell you the cookies look wonderful!

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    1. Thanks so much, Jacqueline, happy new year to you and yours! It's too funny Cooper was having "too much Christmas", so insightful of him really :-)

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  3. Ahhhh another thoughtful post. My problem has always been getting what I want and then looking towards the next thing rather than appreciating what I have. This is something I struggle with and really don't want to impart to J. I want him to grow up appreciating what he has versus looking for the next whatever.

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  4. One thing we sort of instituted this past Christmas and will definitely do this year is to do our own version of a Victorian Christmas:
    Something to read
    Something to create (art supplies for us)
    Something you want
    Something you need

    www.keepingrobin.blogspot.com

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    1. Hi Robin, I like that a lot, so this is a conversation you have with your child prior to Christmas? I might use that next year. Thanks so much for sharing:-) Appreciation and gratefulness can be hard to teach in our instant gratification society. Hard, but not impossible I think.

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    2. He was too young this past Christmas to talk about it (he's 2 3/4) but next Christmas we definitely will. I like the idea of instituting it for birthdays too.

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  5. I think he would have been thrilled with just the trains in his stocking this past Christmas :)
    Next year we will definitely start talking up the gifting ahead of time.

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  6. Happy New Year Helene! This is really good. My whole family will love this, especially my husband and I will with coffee! Living here, I feel a lot of people feel they deserve to get certain things, like you say expect to have them. We do our best to teach our kids and hope one day they can also teach their children...

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